Shannon, I'm so sorry for your struggles, and frankly I (like many other here, I'm sure) am in awe of how much you've been able to achieve and what a great life you've been managing to give to Sophie despite all your challenges. You're a very strong person and can absolutely get through this. Meanwhile, I hope you are able to find more support in your day-to-day and that you recognize that you deserve to reach for and accept it. Hoping for the very best for you and your little girl.

Regarding what the universe has in mind, maybe consider this: the "universe" nudged you towards the self-directed job you currently have because it wanted you to have the space to take care of yourself.

And for what it's worth? I think once you take more time for self-care and give your body a chance to heal, your writing, inspiration, and happiness will then reach even higher heights! :) The rest will totally be worth it.