I'm really sorry to hear that, Alicia, and I totally feel for you. I've applied to so many jobs lately that I don't even know the majority of what I applied for — because I'm also not interested in most of it, so it immediately slips my mind. Retail doesn't sound like a reliable way to pay the bills, and I'm facing the same prospect; I've been thinking of café work, but that wouldn't even cover my expenses on full-time hours. The times are tough. :-/ I wish I had solid advice about this, but all I can say is that I hope we both find solutions soon that feel truly worthwhile.