I think often about how men used to wear ostentatious wigs, and makeup, and high heels, and how pink was once considered a "masculine" color. It's so strange and sad that so much (maybe all) of the performance of gender is EXTREMELY ARBITRARY — and yet people still feel utterly trapped within it. Good for you for realizing that you can define your own way of existing. I hope you find the place within yourself that feels like home to you. 💜